A week about relationships

The help to see something deeply, can impact in trickles and waves that you would never plan.
This is what last week was for me. Wakes and quakes of my emotional foundations. The dissecting of emotions and revealing he under deriving forces behind them. Rebellion and pride... Both very familiar topics. Just the emotions themselves tell the deeper volcano inside.

Praise Dad for his tender mercy.

When I can not understand or relate directly because of my self protecting defense walls, it takes a story, a testimony of another for you to pick what pieces describe yourself. Quickly seeing the flaws, I was left speechless and ashamed, things become more and more clear. More and more making me aware of how restoration begins at the core. How can we witness and not expect these things to be planted too. Seek God first, his kingdom, love, and all the rest will be added. When sew try to teach or make people like us... It replicated the bad parts too.

I am messed up, mutated from Gods desired plan, therefore why would I want to make more mutants? It is only be Gods grace that some may see the good and seek God to find it, but it does not take me. He can use me to shine, but I have no power to change; no power, especially since my heart is not pure first. I think this is also why we are warned not to judge. But each is accountable. Rest assured that love covers a multitude of sins. Begin with love.

Still learning what that means...
I'll keep you posted.

John 14:27New International Version (NIV)27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

My God gives me hope and comfort in his grace. he is not a God of manipulation or intimidation, he is so much bigger, he gives us freedom; freedom to create, breath, love. How amazing right!?! :)
Miss you friends and dear family!
Many blessings.
~Rachel