the harder topics are the ones which we avoid. This morning was my turn to lead Intersession. While preparing trying to see what was the topic or verses for our group. James 3 continued to resign ate on my heart. I felt a strong block. For some reason verses and direction did not flow as I had expected or usually feel. Leading is a bit tricky. Especially when asking a God who I not limited by human standards. More than I can understand. Who am I to understand or ask God how to interpret or speak about His words.
I fell asleep unexpectedly and dreamt long, as I woke up I was super nervous. Though I feel like God was asking me to rely on him and letting his words flow, I wanted to be clear and know before hand. as I was washing my clothes in out Hotel bathroom (we are staying at the ymca), I kept asking God to k ow what he would have me speak about. Again just hearing that it would be about James 3.
Closer to our devotion and worship time, I began getting impatient and nervous, feeling still unprepared to lead. During worship, Star led and opened with a song about repentance and being humble before God. It was amazing to see how the Holy Spirit prepares the way for things to follow. It proceeded to getting to a song about cleansing, and redemption. One sister prayed and encouraged us that God wants us to look past our current situation and hold on to the Hope of God's bigger plan. We ended singing God of this City by Chris Tomlin. So cool right!
Next it was my turn. Beginning with a bit of silence, and opening in prayer by one of our brothers, nervously I asked for a few volunteers to take turns reading the passage. Later, when it was my turn to read two versus, a heavy weight fell on my heart as I finished up to verse 12.
There was an intense burning in my heart and weight to the things that came out of my mouth. One of the sisters yesterday mentioned that it is the little things that build up and make an impact. The little things that build and make up our character. Just like the little things which leave an impression on others, so are words. It can take one word to build up or even one to tear down. But how much do we say unintentionally to break? Yet like accidentally forgetting the small amount of yeast in a bread recipe, it can change the entire outcome. When representing God's kingdom, we need to be rooted in His word and be mindful of the things we say and do. We are free peoples! We are also harvesters, and for this time here given the task to harvest. I know to be called there would be a need that is expressed. Hearts cry to the Lord for people to help with the harvest, and that is when He provides. Build one another up and carry each others burdens.
Later...
In the afternoon, Mr.John came to speak to us about culture and the ministry here in Chiang Rai. It was so cool to see how many echoes of the things we talked about and heard in the morning were confirmed. The Holy Spirit uses God's word to pave the way, then affirms the message later--when no one knew what the other person would talk about. Even with such an overwhelming task, it is the little things that count. You do not have to do much. But many workers doing something little creates a unified change. So is the Message of the Gospel. It starts with something so little. Hope. Faith. An act of love. The ripple effect is what is so amazing to see. But it can change.
Right now just to serve as a servant to servants. :)
What is so cool is no matter what field you are called in, what venue you use, you only have this time. Use it! People say all the time You only live life once (YOLO),--which can be taken in many ways-- which way will you live if you know you only have today? It starts with the small things.
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Verses:
James 3:1-12
1 John 4:4;11-14
~Rachel
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